Un pequeño mensaje.

Today when I woke up, I thought about writing something in our blog, and to comment on what has been happening. I do not know if you have had an experience when you saw that God began to close doors. That really can get to be difficult and that is what I have been seeing God do lately.
There is only a little more than 2 months left before our marriage, and I realized that we have almost nothing ready. Only my dress that is being made, but we do not yet have a place where will be our reception after our wedding in the church. My sisters are helping me with that, and the places we have went we see that they are already reserved. Last week I went to a place that I liked but I could not find a person that I could ask about the cost of the reception. I only obtained a telephone number and I tried calling for 2 days, and when I was finally able to speak to him, he said that in the morning another person had reserved that place for a reception for the 10th of November. That made me sad but it was God who closed the door. Saturday I went to another place, and it was very big and pretty. And when my sisters and I arrived at that place I asked if it was available the 10th of November, and the person said ‘yes, it is available’. I was very excited and soon asked how much it costs to have the reception here. The price was very expensive, and I could feel that again God closed the door, and I returned to the house. My sisters encouraged me to continue looking for another place, but really we were tired, and we decided to go to the house.
Now I can see that it is very difficult when God begins to close doors, but I know that God does it because he wishes to say something to us and wishes that we trust him. I forgot about that during these days, and I felt that I was stubborn and tried to open the doors that were closed. I know that is not the correct way to act but that is something of our own nature and I know that God understands me when I am stubborn, and he then begins to seal the doors so that they are not opened. And I think that God does that because he has something better to give, but that is something that is difficult to understand.
But during those difficult days God used Tim to make me see that it is not with our own force that we can manage to reach something, and if we see that God is closing doors it is because He wishes that we trust him and we give the difficulty to Him, and we let God makes his work. Tim said to me that it is good to not continue looking for places for our reception, because God has reserved a special place for our reception, and we must wait for Him. Those words were very special for me because they gave me peace and tranquility, although to be honest per moments I forget those words and have desires to look for a place for our reception, but I know that God helps me not to be worried on that, and on many other things.
Saturday I was having supper with my family, and I said to them that I did not find a place for the reception, and that I was sad, and that it would be better to not have a reception. And my family listened, and was surprised and worried. I only said that because I was sad, and in fact I desire to have a reception for our guests and desire that they have a special time there.
Sunday I was in the bus with my father, and he said to me that God will be in our marriage, and that God would help us in everything, and that He would do it in a special way.
I think that God does not wish that we are worried on anything, and that He does not wish that we make things a lone, and that He is arranged and very eager to help us.
Really God is using the life of Tim and my father to help me trust God and to hope in Him. And I am wishing to see how God will make the things.